She embraced me with a hug
She held my hand and wiped my tears
And made me feel at home
She smelled like a warm cup of tea
Like friendship and happiness mixed with glee
She showed me a sparkling mirror
With a hint of motivation and inspiration
My heart slowed and I became eerily calm
As I knew at once everything would work out well
I was here and I was shown my existence was worthy
All I have to do is believe in her and in me
I rang the bell of the past
She fell down on her knees
Her voice broke so softly
And I could no longer see
The way I used to curl into a ball
Terrified of how the world greeted me
Afraid to close my eyes just in case
Always waiting for my next mistake
No amount of sorries were enough
Tears dried up, only to fall again
Terrified of everything around me
Reading was my only way to cope
The present is here with me now
Keeping me warm and safe
Filling me with love and joy
Letting me know everything is okay
Breathe in and be calm
For the air is clean and still
Holding you dearly like a soft teddy bear
Knowing it’s not quite safe to let go
One day it will be
And we are slowly getting there
When you feel afraid all you have to do
Is look around and remind yourself people love you.